March is not a good month....

Sunday, 23rd March 2008; 4.30pm:

I got 2 missed calls from Daniel (my sister's boyfriend) but i wasnt free to pick up his calls... i called back but no one picked up the phone.. a minute later, my dad called me and i sensed something was not right.... He was emotional and told me that my mum had an accident... i was stoned and speechless for minutes... what happened?Dad just said that mum was in hospital waiting for report and doctor and likely need to amputate her finger... tears were flowing non-stop... i could sense dad was sad and trying not shed any tear and forced himself to remain calm...

I couldnt focus on my work anymore.. was trying to remain calm as well ... got to know that mum would undergo operation at 7.30 and the ops would be completed by 9.00pm.. all i did was applying for EL to be home with my family to support her... i am fortunate as my superior is supportive.. so do all my colleagues..

My mind was blank and i got a sms from a friend, who offered to send me to the hospital once i reached KL. He did a great favour to me.. Thank you! i gotta mixed feeling.. it was not easy to accept this.. all we could do now is to give mum full support and encouragement...

Sunday, 23rd March; 9.30pm:

Reached hospital... i was trying hard to hold back my tears but when i saw Daniel and my cousin i couldnt help but cried... i was so useless. i couldnt let mum saw my crying baby face ... cousin was right ... all mum needs now is encouragement .... must be strong...

We went up to the ward and i saw mum ... was holding back my tears again ... must be tough... mum's finger was amputated.... i know she was sad at that time.. but she was showing us positive reaction ... saying it was all right... just a finger ... no big deal.. but i know deep inside it 's not easy for her to accept this.......cos i myself cant accept it for now... time will slowly heal the wound ... it already happened ... gotta get over it... and move on.....

Since Monday - Wednesday ... been in and out of hospital visiting mum... finally on Wed, mum was discharged from hospital.. she needs time to recover ...The wound is pain ....

I'm worried for dad as well for he didnt really have enough sleeps last few days ...

hope dad will be strong.... we have to take care of mum and all house chores now onwards... washing, cooking ... being a full time house wife is not something easy tho....

Many relatives and friends sent mum regards and visited mum... mum is tough ... but when she was revealing the incident to my auntie.. she cried and i was so heart broken seeing her suffering all these......

Time past vry quickly and it's Friday today... and i gotta return back to work tomorrow so i gotta leave home.. i know mum is sad as i was leaving home just now i could see her crying... on my way back i tried to sleep but i couldnt sleep.. will try not to think too much~ but then a close friend called me and i couldnt help but broke into tears again...feel so useless......But luckything is my sis is tough and strong... she is calm and able to handle things well... i must learn to be like her... i know we must b strong and cannot tumble now... Moving forward.. gotta be a tough time for us.... we must be strong to brave through this....

Separate incident:

Yesterday, i banged into the back door of my house and knocked on my forehead... dah bengkak now... and just now while i was disembarking from the bus......i slipped and fell down ... hurt my upper back ..swollen now... it 's pain ..but i think the pain i am enduring now is nothing compared to the pain that my mum endures now.... i 'll be strong ....

Thanks for all friends who gave me and my family all the supports during these periods.....I will take care .. and be postive....