WHY ?

I don’t want to cry but I can’t help…
If I could turn back time, I think I will not want to ask
If I am silly enough to pretend, but I know myself very well
Cos I don’t like complicated stuff
But the more you dislike it the more it will come to you…
Complicated minds, thoughts are hurting me now..
Though no one knows, it doesn’t matter
Never experience a smooth sailing, when will I then?
I have no idea but hope I will someday
I have yet to give up but afraid I will soon
Maybe all I need are strength and perseverance
To keep me going ..but I know my limit ..
Once tested and it will be gone and by then I know I am giving up..
When is the time? I have no idea but I think my feeling will guide me on my decision by then…

Not so happy fish ..